This seems to be the “Year of Brokenness” for our family. We’ve had an overabundance of pain and sorrow.
To briefly touch on some of the types of brokenness we’ve been experiencing…
Last spring we lost our baby we were expecting in the second trimester and I had to have emergency surgery due to hemorrhaging during the miscarriage. Post surgery was followed by bed rest and mourning our loss.
My grandmother passed away around that time under very tragic circumstances, so we mourned her loss as well.
During that same time, there was brokenness taking place in my family. Due to circumstances, we had to pull away from a close family member, which was one of the hardest things we’ve ever done. Later in the year, my mother filed for divorce from my dad after 45 years of marriage, and yet another union was broken. Unbelievable things continued to happen during that family situation that brought so much pain and brokenness to our family.
Two of my aunts were diagnosed with recurring cancer.
My husband lost his job when the company, for whom he worked, had fallen on hard times and had to close their doors. For 6 months, he commuted about every other week to work out of town to provide for our family. It was definitely not an ideal situation with him being gone so much and me feeling like a single parent at times, but we were grateful for the work God had provided.
In the spring, I was photographing a wedding when the chair that I was standing on collapsed and catapulted me to the ground on my back. That fall caused several injuries (that I am still trying to heal and recover from.) and I have had to have a series of Chiropractic care to begin to improve physically. I am healing and getting better, but I still have to lie down a lot and take it easy (which is not the easiest to do when running a household of 9 people). During my fall, I also shattered my camera lens and broke my flash in half. Not long after that, my other lens broke also.
Recently, I have had several misunderstandings with close friends and that has required communication and reconciliation.
Ever feel like you are having a tough year and the sorrows just keep piling on? It’s like life keeps throwing dodge balls at you and you can’t get a break. Yeah, that was this year for me and my family…It just seems like the tragedies have been pouring down one on top of another…Sometimes it’s easy to be tempted and think “Man! Can a girl ever get a break?!?”
BUT, that’s not what God has called us to do…The Lord instructs us to rejoice in affliction and pray without ceasing. Don’t feel sorry for me. The Lord is teaching me many things throughout these trials and hopefully I can use these experiences to help others.
Many caring friends have also come along-side me to pray for and with me through these difficult times. That was such an encouragement to me. One of my friends gave me this plaque in the midst of the mayhem and it has really helped to remind me of the Lord’s purposes. Seeing it daily has repeatedly reminded me to adjust my thinking.
You may be thinking, that this seems like a strange and depressing post to write for my first post on a website that is titled JOYful Jane when all I have talked about, thus far, is sadness. The thing is, this post IS really all about JOY because we can have JOY in the midst of brokenness if we know the true source of JOY in our lives.
Having true Joy in our lives doesn’t mean that we will not weep and feel pain. Life is not all roses and sunshine. Having true JOY is when our hearts acknowledge that God is bigger than any pain we can ever know and we can rejoice in His goodness and love in spite of the pain.
This post is about being an overcomer in Christ and CHOOSING JOY in the hard times. Will our situations improve? Maybe they will or maybe they won’t. God doesn’t promise His children easy lives, but He does promise us that His eye is on the sparrow and He watches over us, so we can take comfort in that. The Lord is ALWAYS faithful, even in the toughest of times. God’s word says that “Weeping may endure for a night, but JOY comes in the morning.” Psalm 30:5
As I begin this new journey of sharing my heart here, I don’t want people to ever think that I have it all together and have some perfect life, because I don’t. We ALL deal with brokenness from time to time and I am not exempt from that. If I am dealing with pain and heartache, then there is a good chance that you or someone you know is also dealing with pain and heartache. My hope is that this new blog can encourage others in the midst of broken lives.
Don’t let your life be defined by your brokenness… be an overcomer and Choose JOY along the way!
I’ve really been learning to lean on the Lord’s strength through the trials this year and this scripture has been such an encouragement to me. I decided to write it out in calligraphy and my sweet friend painted the little water-colored blue bird. I’m offering this as a free 8×10 print emailed to anyone who signs up for my blog updates HERE. Blessings and JOY to you and yours!